Traveling Day

7/20/10
Traveling. That pretty much sums up the entire day. We traveled again by bus back to our original city that we first flew into. It was a six hour bus ride but it was good. I LOVE traveling in a moving vehicle. I tend to talk to God there more than anywhere else. So I listened to some great worship music and also I've been reading this really interesting book about hearing the voice of God. I'm really interested and excited to see what YWAM will teach me in this area.
Side note and funny moment of the day: sitting in the back of the bus, I escaped death by an avalanche of suitcases. Too funny!
Also, tonight we had a very good long debriefing session that helped us process some more and be honest about struggles still going on or triumphs of the heart. Also, we went around the room saying five good things or memories of each person on the team. I think it brought us all closer again.

One question Mike asked us to journal about though was one of the hardest things we went through on this trip. I would have to say mine is something I am still struggling with thoughts about. I never really connected with any specific girl at RH. I met lots of different girls everyday and talked to some but I always ended up being alone every night when we said goodbye. I didn't leave any lasting impressions at RH and that really kills me. I mean there's my one girl who I love and think about a ton but I know she wasn't that attached to me. It's like I try to make up in my head that she really did love me back and that she'll think about me a lot too but I don't really know that this will happen. There's a chance because I gave her a picture of me when she asked for it and I wrote her note. But in some ways it breaks my heart to think that I didn't do anything at RH. Now the question is, is that a legitimate response to not being close to the girls or is this the enemy's lie? Right now I'm not sure if I know the difference...