7/21/10
Lots of thoughts are running through my head. It's like I can't wait to get home but I'm already in a state of mourning, leaving here. I just wish I could be alone to cry. I need to let all this pent up emotion out. I almost lost it a couple of minutes ago here in the airport but I tried to hold back. Also, lots of thoughts about my long term future keep bogging my mind. Where are you taking me Lord? This was my first international missions trip and I absolutely love this place! But it was also the same feeling last summer during a missions trip in Canada. Except this one is more intense. Anyway, it makes me wonder if I'll always love these different places around the world. Is this a confirmation that I'm to do missions?
God are you fulfilling my dream of working with youth AND missions? Or is this my own desire getting in the way again? I am so curious to see where You will be leading me in the future. If I'll ever get married or if I do full time ministry, ALL the time. Personally, I'm for either one. But I'm glad You know, Lord, what will happen. I don't know what's up with me and all these questions. I guess the ledge I'm jumping off of is just getting closer and closer...
This sounds ALOT like whats going through my head! Coming here to Ozark i thought i was set on doing missions, but now i'm not sure. I almost feel like it's Childrens Ministry that i should do.. lol.
ReplyDeleteI wrote about it in my blog i just posted, thats one of the things i was wanting to talk to you and Janna about. Just somthing thats going through my mind. I've talked to courtney about it a bit, but i haven't been able to to talk to her since i've started feeling it stronger since she's been in Muskogee this weekend. I'm so excited, but i bit nervous too.
yeah I just read your blog and got caught up:)
ReplyDeleteBut you know i think we should have a joint phone call soon with you and Courtney!
what do you think?
...im not sure if Janna would be able to because she's on a technology fast but we can still try it out.
I would love to hear more about this and more about college! ha:)